Chocolates Galore
At work, one of the upper managers brought in a basket the size of a large laundry basket filled to the brim with every chocolate treat imaginable. I started out trying to have what I really wanted (one chocolate covered pretzel) and resisting the rest. However, as the day progressed and I got to watch more and more people walking by nibbling on assorted deliciousness, I broke down and took a Lindt truffle and a handful of peanut M&Ms and chocolate covered cherries (about 5 of each). For me, a little is never enough. I'm craving and craving and craving!
But it's not going to be a big deal if I can let the last dip into the chocolate stash be the end of it. I can go home and have my planned food and planned workout and by tomorrow, the chocolate cravings will be history.
It's just so hard to know it's sitting there. What's worse is that even though a large part of me knows that I want to lose weight and considers that a top priority, there is another part of me that wants the chocolate more than anything else, like a 4 year old kid throwing a tantrum. This part of me is making excuses and trying to justify having some more. These parts of me battle with each other constantly. My little food brat who wants the chocolate also wants me to bag the entire month of December.
"It's just too much of a pain in the ass," it says. "What's the point? You're already struggling and you're not going to accomplish anything anyway. You can't possibly stay OP. Why stress yourself out about it? Give it to deliciousness!"
I really need to shut that food brat up. I may not accomplish tremendous weight loss this month, but at the very least I am not going to gain weight. I hopefully will lose a few pounds. But I will not gain weight.
I just hate all of these upcoming holiday meals - work-sponsored holiday lunches at restaurants with nothing but artery-cloggers on the menu. Food filled treats all over the office. A long weekend at DH's grandparents' with lots of food. Then DH's birthday. If there was just *one* event, *one* splurge ... I know I could handle it. But wtf? There are like 3 things happening each week.
But it's not going to be a big deal if I can let the last dip into the chocolate stash be the end of it. I can go home and have my planned food and planned workout and by tomorrow, the chocolate cravings will be history.
It's just so hard to know it's sitting there. What's worse is that even though a large part of me knows that I want to lose weight and considers that a top priority, there is another part of me that wants the chocolate more than anything else, like a 4 year old kid throwing a tantrum. This part of me is making excuses and trying to justify having some more. These parts of me battle with each other constantly. My little food brat who wants the chocolate also wants me to bag the entire month of December.
"It's just too much of a pain in the ass," it says. "What's the point? You're already struggling and you're not going to accomplish anything anyway. You can't possibly stay OP. Why stress yourself out about it? Give it to deliciousness!"
I really need to shut that food brat up. I may not accomplish tremendous weight loss this month, but at the very least I am not going to gain weight. I hopefully will lose a few pounds. But I will not gain weight.
I just hate all of these upcoming holiday meals - work-sponsored holiday lunches at restaurants with nothing but artery-cloggers on the menu. Food filled treats all over the office. A long weekend at DH's grandparents' with lots of food. Then DH's birthday. If there was just *one* event, *one* splurge ... I know I could handle it. But wtf? There are like 3 things happening each week.
3 Comments:
I remember all those justification thoughts... it really is super duper hard fending them off, but all I can tell you is that it's pretty much like behavior remodification. Each choice you make everyday to resist a certain something (or to do something good) will eventually give you strength. It's not overnight.. it won't be a week, or a month.. or heck even a year. (seriously, I still consider myself conditioning my behavior) ... but over time, the better decisions will become almost second nature to you. Totally hard to believe, but it's true... because the more you get through each day strong, you really do feel the realization that you are worth more than the temporary delight of certain xFOODPORNx. You can totally do it Gills... just keep going, no matter what. Even if you do slip here and there.. you still ultimately make better decisions with those slips, than not doing anything at all.
- Lele
Maybe you need to look at it differently. First off, only think about one event at a time. Then, when you go, instead of thinking the negative, Oh, I can't eat until I pop, think Yay, I get to have a bit of some very tasty food and I'm happy to know that I'm going to go home feeling like a million bucks, instead of a prize heffer. For me, the hardest part of my weight loss journey has been accepting the fact that it never stops. Oh, and I have a 4 course super fancy Christmas party on Saturday, so if you can remind me of all this tomorrow, that be great! HA!! ;-) Good luck with your choices. Just remember, it is your choice. You can do it!!
I have this situation all the time at work...if I really want something I take it home with me and have it for my dessert at night.
If I start eating sugar during the morning, I want nothing but sugar for the rest of the day. I try to wait until after my dinner to have any, and that helps me.
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